some type of nourishment

I feel like everything is falling apart. I can't stop crying. I'm not sure that I want to. It seems that nothing in my life can ever go smooth. Even as a type my cat is trying to play with my typing fingers. Vanessa has been in Chicago this whole week. She says she's moving out when she gets back. Because of Beka. Honestly in this situation I don't know who is right or wrong. It all began with V texting me reminding me to have Beka pay this bill on the 15th. Then she started texting Beka. Then she had her ex David call me and remind me. All the while neither one of has forgotten. Beka texted V and told her that she didn't need to be reminded a 1000 times. She was kind of annoyed. Then V texted her back calling her a weirdo and Beka then called her a bitch. It all went from there. V called me screaming that she was going to move out when she gets home. Then Tuesday I get a message on my cell from V saying she's giving our apartment key to her sister ex so he can come stay  in her room while she is gone. It upset me. I mean I don't want a complete stranger living in my apartment. It would have been different if she were at least her but she wasn't. David called and I told him not to give Chris the key. I called V and she started going off. Throwing the fact that she gave us a place to stay and all this shit. She hung up on me and I was so mad and hurt that I didn't know what to do. Then she had David comeover and drag her Tv from the living room into her bedroom so Beka and I couldn't watch it. That really made me so angry. I mean how immature and plain mean is that anyways. I left her a message in tears saying I don't know why she is being like this and I don't know why she thinks she is so much better than Beka and I. I haven't heard from her since. I haven't even bothered to call her. The entire situation is so ridiculous. I mean she was suppose to be one of my best friends. I feel seek going over all the details. I don't know what will happen. She gets back tomorrow night and I leave for tampa Sat after work. Maybe by sunday all her shit will be out.....or maybe she'll have a change of heart and see how she treats other people is reakky wrong. I want to ask her if the problem is living with us or living with her damn self. I just need to let it go. Things effect me too deeply. I hate being so sensitive. In such an unsensitive world. It looks like I won't be starting school this semester after all. I think that is the real reason i'm crying right now. I don't have all the documents to prove my residency. It's insane all the apaers you need to just start school. I'm going to see if I can preform  a miracle tomorrow but I don't know. I need some type of nourish.....Thats all for now....and that is enough